Friday, January 30, 2009
fuck, nth good ever happens to me.
my mom came home today and told me
that she might have kidney failure.
she will need dialysis.
this also means that there will be no more guitar lessons,
maybe i have to quit my tuition too.
i never show my feelings in front of her.
i'm crying when i writing this, hope she wont see me.
she always nagged about how she's sick.
i never really cared.
this time its for real. i'm really scared.
she never had a good life too.
if smth is to happen to her, i might kill myself.
or the least i could do is, fail my o levels.
if i roar at you or ignore you during school, please forgive me.
unless god decides to heal my mom, i will never be happy again.
luckily its friday today.
i hate life. life sucks like shit.
&faded to grey at 7:47 PM♥
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